i feel so uneasy today. maybe it's because it's the time of the month and i keep having giddy spells and frequent headaches. my mood swings are swinging in again. all i feel like doing is sleep sleep sleep. even shopping makes me a lil tired now. there's so many things i need to do.. and so many thing's that are bothering me. im annoyed, i'll be lying if i said i didn't need attention.. im still one breathing human here! i seem to have been "dead" for the past 7 years. i feel so insecure. so lifeless.

reality and what i appear to be.. two different things. i cant hide forever.. though i wish to do so. as i always say. reality is cruel. and till today i still think so. there are so many things that have changed my life and many that have made my journey on earth wonderful. i wonder what's with human nature.. minds that wander off to wierd places when being left alone. i guess no one likes to be alone.

the future being so uncertain and so scary, im afraid to face it, i dont want to face it. im afraid that i'll do things that i'll regret, i always do. i think much, and to my dismay, worry much. someone stop my brain please.. it's tired.